Sunday, October 18, 2009
Another person came into my life n neva fail to make me smitten by his jokes n laughter..
thanxs so much fer calling me after werk n checking whether i reached home alrd..
accompanying me by the fone is already gud enuff..
eventhough i was fcuked like hell at werk,u just knew it n will call me at the right time..
thankiu so much..im grateful to have a fren like u...
n fer all the phonecall we had late night laughing n talking about world issue..
i realie enjoyed it...
i hope it will remain like this as long as it can..=D
9:05 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
ended 4 days DO today..will be starting werk tmr as per usual all the wae till next week..y can't holidays be a bit longer..
anw ystd boify prove to me dat he will not hurt me again..
he said dat he want to start it all over again..but its just me..im the one who's holding back..
its neva her fault or ur fault..its just me cux im a gerl who can't accept reality..n im too fragile...
this incident will probably help me make myself a stronger person..
no point thinking about the past n make me feel so hurt..
so from now im gonna think positive...if it bound to happen it will happen..
anw hapie belated bdae to boify..i hope u like the lil surprise dat i make n the prezzie dat i bought fer u..=)
waiting fer paydae to arrive cux i wana shop fer nice clothes,dress n skirts..wohoo..
i wana go swimming at jurong,play luge at sentosa n star gaze or nite cycling at the beach...so much tings to do wit my lil sis whose finishing her semester soon..wohoo!!!
4:34 PM
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Im giving you one more last chance..
but thiz tyme il make my option bigger...
wadeva dat mite happen is all God's will...
i dont wan to think aniemore n in the end make myself more miserable but ill just hang on...
cuz i noe 1 dae il get my happiness but il wait fer dat dae to come..
for now im relying on my frens to make my life worth living..
thanks to all my close fren...i love u all...=)
12:36 PM
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
i knew this day will come sooner or later...
wad u both said did knock some sense into my head..
i need to change my soft heart to a stronger ones...
after reading that well composed msg of hers..i suddenly realised dat its time fer me move on...
n not hoping fer a miracle to happen...
she herself said dat she doesnt have feeling fer him but wadeva she wrote in the msg is opposite of wad she said..
it stabbed my heart too deep that i finalie bled non stop...
cold compress was given but still it didnt stop...pressure bandage is applied..now im in stable condition and i mite collapse anietym
not even a reassurance from him...all he ask was her no n dat u wanted to ask her abt her life...
m i a doll to him..thanx so much fer saying u love me so much ystd...
im not believing evry single word u saying..im hurt over n over again...
I hate u fer doing this to me,i hate u fer being my ever 1st love..i hate u fer evryting...
it wil be hard fer me to move on but im sure god will stand by me...
yesh i noe u miss her deeply but as a fren??? i doubt so...
2nd august incident will alwaez be playing in my mind...till im finalie move on..
how long?? God noes....im no longer a part of u..
hapie advance bdae to u on 9th Oct...il remain silent by then...
2:11 PM
