Friday, February 16, 2007
My intention on dat dae was to give u dat last present n disappear from ur life.Its hard for me to make dat decision..i dun wan u to keep thinking abt me since u hv to think of her feelings too... i feel dat im just too much of a burden to u.. i tot dat was d very last dae we eva gonna meet n contact... but y did u make a confession of ur feelings towards me at dat most crucial point of time??? I dun wana noe cuz at least i wun feel hurt n guilty to the extreme... but sumhow wen i kol n heard ur disappointed voice thinking dat i was gona leave u make me feel bad.. i dun wan to hurt u.. its betta for me to hurt myself than to hurt u... u ask me to wait for u cuz u think one dae we will b togather... i reali dun wan my hopes to be dampened again...its very tiring...i dun noe wad to do? People ask me to listen to my heart... a part of me wants to be with him while d other part of me ask me to leave him... arghhh? Diz is soo contradicting... fate??? Leaving to fate is the onli choice but until wen i will hv to wait... i dun even noe... maeb i can just dream on of me n him being togather...hmmph:(
Matters of the heart can be so complicated...
8:52 PM
