Friday, February 16, 2007
My intention on dat dae was to give u dat last present n disappear from ur life.Its hard for me to make dat decision..i dun wan u to keep thinking abt me since u hv to think of her feelings too... i feel dat im just too much of a burden to u.. i tot dat was d very last dae we eva gonna meet n contact... but y did u make a confession of ur feelings towards me at dat most crucial point of time??? I dun wana noe cuz at least i wun feel hurt n guilty to the extreme... but sumhow wen i kol n heard ur disappointed voice thinking dat i was gona leave u make me feel bad.. i dun wan to hurt u.. its betta for me to hurt myself than to hurt u... u ask me to wait for u cuz u think one dae we will b togather... i reali dun wan my hopes to be dampened again...its very tiring...i dun noe wad to do? People ask me to listen to my heart... a part of me wants to be with him while d other part of me ask me to leave him... arghhh? Diz is soo contradicting... fate??? Leaving to fate is the onli choice but until wen i will hv to wait... i dun even noe... maeb i can just dream on of me n him being togather...hmmph:(
Matters of the heart can be so complicated...
8:52 PM
Friday (16 feb 2007)Yahoo finalie 3 papers r over..left 1034 n 1082...realie dunoe wer to start. Too much to study n too little time.. hmm got 6 daes to study sae.. look like a long holidae but i can tell u time pass by damn fast lah... haiz exam stress on the rise my appetite is also growing.. i m scared dat i wud grow fat lah if i continue like diz...D funnie part is dat rab gave me a miz kol in the exam hall while d lecturers r busy collecting the qn ppr... she can even msg me eventhou he sat in front.. d tot of dat makes me laugh.. tkpe even if we jauh di mat we will steel b dekat di hati...hehee..Also borrowed a psycho textbook dat was due on 5 feb n just 2dae i went to return...didn't even read a single page sae cuz it was too chim for me to understand.. n i muz pay around $1.80..tkper lah halalkan je lah...hahaa..Anw kia ur pants look very funky lah...it seems dat u readie find ur true identity sae..ur fashion sense is now going towards the MAT style...improving arh cik abg tu.. sorie 4goten dat ur turning 19 instead of 2o yrs... hehe..not bad wad ur steel a teenager till d age of 21 yrs eventhou deres no teen word behind twenty... kite just make it twenteen..sounds nice or not? yay!Wah for the past few outing with rab, been eating LJS... n mugging,,, well d session was effective for a while thou.. steel rmbr at esplanade, we were laughing so loud like nobodie's bisness maklum lah long time no see den a librian suddenly came to us n ask us to tone down... ingatkan dier nk join skali ke...n rab didn't believe dat she was d librian cuz d uniform didnt look like one...hee.Steel hv yet to go to starbucks,sentosa,seoul garden n SHOPPING with memii seh...haiz.Holidae got attachmt but we both r going attachie at diff dates...hope dat our wish terkabul...d one wish dat i will b hoping it to cum true is for grup 14 to have a chalet to commemarate our 1 yr of class anniversary... haiz.Will it cum true? We'll just have to see abt dat..For the CNY hol guess not going aniwer cuz got to study, 2pon not sure i will study or not n deres a lot of interestin show lah.. can't wait..d best thing is dat i can sleep for LONG hours.. i repeat LONG hours..hehee...
8:07 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007
Monday ( 5 jan 2007)
Went to CDC early dis morning... sumore alone.. actualie d nite before syg asked me to wake him up early morning so dat he can accompany me for d checkup 2dae.. Upon hearing his sleepy voice wen he picked up d fone,i asked him to go back to sleep cuz he must b very tired n had to go to work later at 3pm...
I was lost lah.. didn't noe wer is CDC despite living in spore for 17 years..hahaa.. more worse than tourist lah...Luckily in the end manage to find lor... just hv to follow the signboard..I practically stayed dere for 5 hours.. didn't even took lunch cuz ttsh was super far lah...
Doc sae my fever cud b due to upper resp infection... ive been given 5 dae MC all d wae till diz sat to rest..hehee.. super long break.. but still hv to study n pay back 7 daez of attachmt.. seems like 1 wk of my holidae hv to b burn just like dat...
Syg didn't realise dat i kol him early in the morning so he msg me asking me y i didn't woke him up... he was very worried.Rest assured i noe how to take care of myself k syg.His mum even kol me to ask abt my condition... thanx alot cik for ur concern...realie appreaciate it..
5:57 PM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
I was so shocked u called me straight awae after work..Cuz u would onli called me in the middle of the niteIs it true u can feel dat sumthing was not right??Wen u say u wanted to rush here immediately n acompany meRealie make me lost for wordsI dun noe how to thank u..Dat nite realie shows me dat u care for me..Even wen i had to go toilet, u even help me take out the drip bag n make sure i return safely to bedU didn't even sleep bcuz of me..I felt guilty..I noe u were thinking wen u r very quiet sitting at one corner...Deres nothing to worry cuz il b back on my feet in no tyme dear..While i was hospitalised for the 2nd dae, u kept checking on meI felt so blessed..Thanx syg.. u realie make me build back my trust for uIm glad to have u by my side...It was quite a memorable experience to have sumone i like to stay beside me..Just noe dat no matter wad hapens i will alwaez rmbr all d good deed u hv done to me..N one more thing thanx for sending me home ystd late at niteDidn't meant to trouble u..heehe.
12:15 PM
Sunday (4 jan 2007)
On thursday,i hv to werk afternoon shift.Ard 6am in the morning i was shivering n my whole body felt warm..I couldn't take it so i immediately went to eat acetaminophine n went t sleep.Tot da the fever might hv gone down but it didn't.My mom asked me not to go to werk.But i was rather stubborn cuz i dun wana makeup..hehee.As soon as i reached hospital for my attachie, i sudenly felt weak n giddy.Zafirah n Yushan help to take my temp n to my shockness, my temp was 39 degrees.
Mdm Doris asked me to go n c doctor n take 2 dae MC... I straight awae went to the nearest clinic at my home.After dey checked me, dey suspect i hv appendicitis.. immediately i was sent to A and E dept.. as soon as i reached dere, dey test my urine n i hv to be admitted for 24hrs for observation.My gosh wen dey poke my hand to set the IV plug, was super painful sae.Tu lah nk sangat jadi patient kan dah kena..hahaa.The doctors hv to draw bld ard 3 times.. wah living as a patient is so worse lah...sumore i was NBM or 24 hours sae..hee.Like fasting sia.
What make me so touched was dat as soon as i was admitted all my classmate n frenz neva failed to visit me.It was so sweet of all of u.
I wana sae a big THANK YOU for visiting me n showing ur concern:(Classmate)
-Rabiah: u even came eventhou d nxt dae u r on morn shift, so sweet of u darlin
-Shiela: Thanks for the mag n chips more tau
-Khair: Tk kesah if u neva bring buah tgn, at least u visit me pon dah cukup.its the tots dat counts
-Memii: Thanx for the polar puff, sanggup u cum down from SGH.. u realie make me touched
-Ming Li: Thanx for ur company, u realie talkative but ooh i like...not forgetting d egg tart,thanx
-Lee Fung
-Xue Ling
-Joanne
-Pan shuang
-Geeta
-Naima
-Zafirah
-Yushan
-Wan Ling
-Nisha
-Kumari
-Joan
-EN Umi
-Mdm Doris
I also wana sae a BIG THANK YOU to the rest who came:
-Munii: Thanx for the 17 mag
-Eis
-Aidil n Aishah
-Suraya
-Wan n Ain
-Helmi
Diz hospital stay is indeed memorable.. thanx for making my hospital stay interesting my dear fren..i will alwaez rmbr all d fun we had toking on the bed...yay! Lurve u all muackz!!!
11:49 AM
