Sunday, December 17, 2006
Sunday( 17 Dec 2006)
Well here i m with with rabiah at cyber cafe at ang mo kio... n diz iz the 1st tyme i enter here. Its super noisy with the ppl so excited by playing maple story.. kia's favourite. Ouh i heard kia internet crashed down, i hope u can get it repair soon darling...
Hmmph let me c wat i have to blog... ya its been 3 daez since my mum left.. realie miss her soo much.Dun even hv the appetite to eat sae...wat touched me was wen she sae she cried for me wen she's leaving for m'sia.. she was quite worried for me lah...aww.I think i can't leave without my mum n family...
Kia n rab r asking me to go for the mentorship camp which is tmr...n i dun even hv the mood to enjoy myself... i juz wana b alone for sumtyme... im puzzled with my own life? Why is it so complicated dat dere is no solution to it... its endless..I can't get over the fact dat we r not 2gather n dat u r leaving me physically n emotionally... how cud u do diz to me?
Its been 1 and 1/2 mths since we parted... y can't i just put my past behind me... i dun wana drag it anie further.Its enuff for me.. but i realie can't let go of the past. There r soo manie obstacles dat realie contribute to our separation n i didnt even dare to tell u d real reason behind it... evrytime wen u contacted me, i tried to deny dat i steel hv feelings for u... Argggghhhh!
I hate myself for leaving u... perhaps i shud not hv let go of u... its my mistake, my fault...the pain dat i've brought upon myself is very torturous n unbearable..i noe wateva dat im saying now is pointless n dat we will neva eva get 2 b 2gather lyke last tyme again... i just hopedat u can get a better gerl who can take care of u... n i wun eva 4get u dear... haiz!!!
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