This is the dae dat i was afraid of... n it did came in the end. On fridae, my syg brought ayu to my hse for raya.. at 1st i was okae with it provided they behave as frenz. When i saw ayu came, OMG... she wore a nyonya kebaya very tight fitting n transparent wif her thick makeup.. it makes me wana puke lah.Cannot stand her sight at all wen i saw her.She looks rather old.eeeee...
I just close 1 eye lah... den the worse n climax part was dat dey sat at my 3 sitter sofa side by side,shoulder to shoulder n she put her bag at the sofa... im not sure purposely or wateva lah... in the end i must sit very far from my syg.At least my syg shud hv ask me to sit nxt to him... i shud get the top priority since im his gerl but he didn't do aniething.I was disappointed.
He did kol me syg n tok to me in a manje tone.. at dat tyme my heart was filled with anger until i sae shut up lah u... i gave him attitude.I noe i was wrong to dat but i just can't control my emotions... how long does he wan to hurt me...its so hurtful.I watch the tv n neva even turn to look at him..
Wen dat ayu sae dat she dun wana eat, he sae u wan me to feed u izzit in a pampered tone... i noe he didn't realise it.My heart realie shattered in2 thousand pieces... dis is not the 1st tyme... i hv tolerated his behaviour for quite a sum tyme... i cannot take it aniemore.
I didn't even hv the mood to entertain both of them... as soon as dey wana leave home, i didn't even sent them off.Dat very nite he kol me n ask me wats wrong with me... y i show attitude 2wards ayu n he sae he was ashamed of my behaviour. Wen i sae dat pompuan, he suddenly stand up for her by saying she is his good fren, imagine how i felt at dat tyme..usualie he will alwaez tok bad abt her behind me.I felt sumthing fishy is going on.
Den he sae he realie fedup of my behaviour...how was i suppose not to give attitude wen dey were talking merrily to each other... perhaps i was being too sensitive? I dun even noe my own feeling... terriblie confused at dat moment.He sae he will not kol me again.
The nxt dae i sae i wana mit him to talk things out n i realie wana save the relationship,i msg him in the morning n he replie me at 8pm.Perhaps his ppd low n he just topup.He sae he realie dun hv the tyme to meet me cuz he is bz...den he kol me n ask me wat i wana tok. I didn't feel its a gd idea to tok on the fone cuz by confronting each other at least i can c the truth thru his eyes.. he sae i was behaving lyke a small kid. Den i told him dat i was at my ibu angkat home... he dun lyke it wen i sae im bz... imagine how does i feel wen he alwaes sae dat he was bz... it hurts rite, syg?
Last word was he sae he wun eva kol me again... d nxt min he msg me he is going to marrie dat pompuan in 2 yrs tyme n now i gave attitude( was it my fault in the 1st place) he ask me to take care n studie hard for my future.At 1 am he kol me... i was shocked lah, i tot we broke up readie. He sae at dat tyme he was moody n dunoe wad to so he just msg lyke... he realie played with my emotion...lastly i can't take it, i told him its beta off we go separate waez. If we go on, both of us mite get hurt.He didnt replie my msg.
ON sun,5pm he kol me to confirm weather i meant it or not.I forced myself to sae dat i mean it n i wun regret... den he start his sweettalker words dat his love for me is deep as the sea. At dat tyme onwards... it just ended between him n me.. Its all history... but i will alwaes rmbr him as the 1st person whu teach me the meaning of love..i steel love him despite evrithingdat he had done to me...maeb i'll just take it as a gd xperience...
ONLI TIME CAN HEAL THE WOUND....
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Welcome!
Love that is true never grows old.
It's Me
Nasreen aka nas
Nanyang Polytechnic
Year 3 graduating in 11 mths time
Student but gonna be staff nurse soon
Im in lurve with sumone who managed to find the key to my heart
Loves hanging out with frens,sociable,open minded and shopping.
Appreciate evry one dat appear in my life before..
