Well todae i muz sae its the most terrible n horrible dae of all dat i will eva rmbr in my life... wana noe wat happen...read on. My syg suddenly ask me weather i wana bed with him... i was shocked as to why he ask dat. Im not a cheap gerl whu will anyhow sleep with guys.He was mad wen i gave my ans as 'no'. He kept pestering me to give my virginity to him... i was lyke wad the heck... at that point of tyme i was totalie angry.I ask him y r u so eager to break my v... n guess wats is his response? He sae he dun wana lose me n once i bed with him im his n i will rmbr him 4eva cuz he is the 1st 2 break my v... i can believe wateva im hearing sia... i kept giving him 'no' as an ans n he started giving me attitude. He sae i cannot give wat he wants n dun blame him if he eva went to bed with sumone else... my heart shattered wen i heard dat.It was so hurtful...its true i cnt give u sex but i can shower u with love,care n concern...he even sae dat i did not sacrifice anieting n im not making an effort for this relatnshp, i didn't expect all diz to cum out from his own mouth. He didn't noe dat i had to cope btw studies n him n i sacrifice my beauty sleep for him.I also neva fails to kol him in the middle of the nite despite having exam the nxt dae.Y can't u just think all the things dat i hv done for u...i realie love n care for u a lot.. y can't u even treasure me?
Lately he has been quite close with a gerl named ayu... i was quite jealous bcuz he told me dat d gerl gave him a kiss on the cheeks n hug him... the shocking thing was he neva avoid her or watsoeva n neva even tell her dat he was attached... it was too much for me to take it. Evrynite i kept thinking of it.He sae he neva flirt with her.He sae he wans me to b faithful... i tried my best to avoid my closest best guyfren so dat he wud b hapie dat im faithful to him.. but on the other hand he is not.I even tell ppl dat im atached.Y can't he just tell ppl dat...its plain simple wat... dat nite after we quarrel over the sex issue, he kol me n tol me dat he was unfaithful 2wards me... he had went to bed with ayu.. n she haven cum her menses.How cud u do this to me???? U noe how sad n depressed was i... i did not eat the whole dae n it realie disgust me....he was so scared dat she wud b pregnant... he kol me n i did not pickup. Lastly after17 miss kal... i dcided to pickup his fone kol...he shouted at me as 2 y i didn't not pickup d fone. I was not in the mood to talk wat... he sae all gerls realie noe how to sakit hati guys... i realie dun noe wad wrong have i done... y muz all turn up lyke diz.... he sae he wan me to stick with him even if ayu is pregnant with hiz child... i cant even think of sharing my love with another gerl...i realie dunoe wad to do...
I noe i love him soo much despite a lot of heartbreaks he had caused in me...i kept asking myself y im steel holding on to him...i noe i can live without him its just dat i cant bear to c him suffer..he sae he will noe the result wen she consult a doctor... after she return from doctor, she sae she was pregnant... dat tyme i realie gave up. I dun wana b the 3rd party so i kept asking him to take care of ayu since she is carrying his child. I kept crying... i reali cant accept the facts... lastly i put down the fone without saying bye... the nxt dae he kol me n he got to noe dat she was not pregnant.. she was trying to make him like her n accept her as his gerlfren... i was relieved cuz i dun wan him 2 b too stess abt dis matter... it was easy for me 2 forgive but hard for me to forget wateva he has done to me.... it kept playing in my mynd. Im slowly trying to let him go even wen im steel with him... it realie hurt me very deep dat the wound inside me r steel fresh... onli time can hael the wound.
12:32 PM
Welcome!
Love that is true never grows old.
It's Me
Nasreen aka nas
Nanyang Polytechnic
Year 3 graduating in 11 mths time
Student but gonna be staff nurse soon
Im in lurve with sumone who managed to find the key to my heart
Loves hanging out with frens,sociable,open minded and shopping.
Appreciate evry one dat appear in my life before..
