Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Ayang mux be sliping rite now..i kinda miss u deeply...im real sorie dat i made u worried yesterday till u even went to search fer me all over yishun just to ensure dat im safe...u r soo nice to me dear..suddenly u transformed into another person who is sum1 dat fits my criteria of a dream guy...i appreciate all the things dat u hv done fer me..u hv been texting me n calling me daily,u hv been showing me dat u care fer me n showering me wit loads of love..thankiu dear fer diz past 43mths u have been patient wit my behaviour...i hope our r/s can go far despite all the challenges dat we wud be facing in the future...=)
12:43 AM
Saturday, December 05, 2009
I've seen ur true colours n dats enuff fer me to make a wise decision..=)
1:01 AM
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Ystd nite wit wan zhen alone was super shitty...especially mon nite wit all the changes n IV plug wanted fer my pt...i swear it was so unbearable..i finished writing report at 4.30am..i meant on mon till wed y don't they actuallie give 3 SN so dat the floater can give IV fer each of our side...n we didn't even had time to topup the injection trolley n the counter was so messy..in the end we get a scolding from Sister Ho..omg 1st tyme i see her super pissed..but nehmind at least im so glad dat she's back in action to our ward..wee!!have yet to ask her to change my roster..yikes!!Anw after reading all my previous post wit ayang..i realised how deeply in love i was with him back then ard 3 yrs ago...i just wished dat the feeling will just come back n make my heartbeat skip a beat weneva i c u..but no matter a part of my heart still says dat i love u..its oni dat its not strong enuff dear...nehmind togather we will make it relive again...mitting ayang tmr to book BTT...ooh i can't wait...=)ps:i hope todae will be a betta nite fer me...pray hard..bismillah.
5:11 PM
Monday, November 30, 2009
Night with u ystd did struck me hard...i mean im not trying to play wit ur feelings Mr S...but sumhow i think im falling fer u slowly..its because of ur maturity but on the otha hand i noe things can neva werk out btw us...haish..i dun wan to play wit both of ur feelings but i just dunoe how to confess to the both of u...i like both of ur companion cux u both r alwaez ther wen i need u...i noe im selfish enuf to do this but il just let time decides...if 1 dae i had to lose the both of u..then im prepared for it..
Wadeva u told me at punggol ystd did hurt my heart a bit,dats wer i noe dat i fall fer u but ther r just circumstances dat we can't be tgt...i hope 1 dae u will understand wad i meant...i wan u to have a great future n spent ur tyme wit sum1 dat will surely b ur wife..i don't want u to waste ur age aniemore..we bothe noe dat we can't put alot of hopes in dix r/s dat we were having..n i doubt that u even trust evry single words dat i told u..n it's okae fer me cux i've lied to u once before..i just dunoe wad to feel...hurt,confused or useless???
Boify is having suspicion over me due to wadeva ppl have been telling him...to the xtent dat he was waiting fer me at the coffeeshop to see whether i've reached home alone or wit sum1 else..i was super shocked wen he said dat he was waiting at the coffee shop..thank goodness he didn't saw e wit Mr S...im saved.this game is getting more dangerous n i can c dat u realie love me dear..i realie felt bad fer doing this to u ayang..forgive me..i just dunoe wad was i tinking..ultimately 1 dae i still need to make a wise decision to choose between the both of u..let tings b the wae it is NOW...
5:41 PM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
I finallie pluck my courage to tell u dat i still love u after neglecting u for 1 whole week...its been rather hard for me due to certain issue dat was playing in my mind back then...i noe dat sumtymes i do take things too hard till it affected our r/s..n im real sorie dat i was getting attention from another person but now i realised dat wadeva happens u were always ther fer me n won't dissappear from me eventhou i was damn cruel..ur love fer me is so strong dat it make me tink twice if i wana let go of this r/s...thanx so much munii fer knocking some sense into my head gal..i shall stay devoted to u regardless of wad dat idiot thinks...n im not acting defeat wen it comes to love..=)
1:28 AM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Im playing with fire now and its a very big mistake...i shouln't have gave u hope n lied to u dat im single..now i've made u fall in love wit me..u r such a nice person who cud get sum1 betta..i really don't wana hurt u..indeed u have been giving me the support,care,hope n concern fer this past 1 mth..i gladly appreciate all the sacrifices u done to me..but on the otha hand when u confess to me,i didn't noe how to react..i dun even noe i love u or only enjoyed ur company..i dun wan it to be in a way dat i turn to u just becux i felt lonely or heartbroken wit my boify...
Shud i just ran away in silence from u...i realie treasure everything dat we had now..i want it to be like diz all the way but i noe good things wun last long...n my r/s wit boify fer the past 3 and 1/2 years is slowly fading..all the attention dat i want n yearn from boify cud onli be achieved wen i mit him...haish.I feel damn guilty..i hope i cud get the answer who shud i choose...
ps:i can't wait fer my 1 whole wk of leave during payday week!!!=)
3:07 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Another person came into my life n neva fail to make me smitten by his jokes n laughter..
thanxs so much fer calling me after werk n checking whether i reached home alrd..
accompanying me by the fone is already gud enuff..
eventhough i was fcuked like hell at werk,u just knew it n will call me at the right time..
thankiu so much..im grateful to have a fren like u...
n fer all the phonecall we had late night laughing n talking about world issue..
i realie enjoyed it...
i hope it will remain like this as long as it can..=D
9:05 PM
